Friday, January 8, 2010

My Saddest Day


My dear grandpa passed away today and I am devastated. Not that his death was a surprise, as he has been battling heart trouble for quite some time, but I don't think you are ever truly ready for that day. I can't believe he's actually gone. Last Sunday was such a gift. I caught my grandpa on a day where his mental clarity was very high. We were able to talk, laugh and cry for almost 2 hours. He offered his trusted advise, we reminisced, and we were able to tell each other how much the other meant to us. It was such a gift. Knowing that was the last time I spoke to him makes it all the more special. I will miss his step clap dance routine (see above picture). I will miss his soft, strong hands and his always complimentary and positive attitude. Grandpa, I will never forget the things you've told me and the incredible times we have shared. I am so honored and proud to be called your granddaughter. It is something I will take pride in the rest of my life. There won't be a day that goes by where something doesn't remind me of you. I will strive to live everyday to it's fullest potential in your honor, grandpa. I love you and will miss you dearly.

9 comments:

Jennikunz said...

Annie I was so sad to hear of his passing. You are right you are never really ready no matter what the situation. Your grandpa was so awesome, he was always so kind to me and my family. Great man. He will be missed!
Let me know if you need me for anything. The kids are always welcome if yuo need to do some running around. Love you!

sarah said...

Perfect. Absolutely perfect.

hayleyrowan said...

that's really sweet you had that last talk together. that's what i'll miss the most, just talking to him.

Lindsay said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Annie. Remember and cherish all of the amazing times you've had wtih your grandpa. I'm sending you a great big hug!!

Lucky 7s said...

There are a lot of wonderful things written about your grandpa. He was a very kind and loving man. But the best words written are by those that loved him so much. What a loving tribute you wrote.

Anne Marie said...

Annie, I am so sorry. It seems like it should be easier when your loved one has lived a long life and you are expecting it, but it so hard. I'm so sad for you, but I'm so glad that you had a chance to talk with him one last time. I know you'll cherish that memory forever. Good luck getting through the next few days. I would love to watch your boys for you any time, so please call! {hugs}

Jessie said...

I love you, Annie! Hang in there and know that I am here if you need any thing at all. That was a beautiful post. I know your grandpa was just as proud to call you his grand-daughter. Love you!

Mindy said...

Annie, I was so sad to hear your grandpa passed away, I am so sorry for your loss, I know how much he meant to you and what a close relationship you had with him. Everytime you talk about him it always reminds me of the time he took us skiing, that was such a fun day, he was a great man!!

Tiffany said...

I am so sorry for this difficult time in your life. I am here for you if you need ANYTHING! Please don't hesitate to call. I'm happy that you got to have those special last moments with him. He sounds like a wonderful man and a great example. You are in my thoughts.